I’ve never been so tired in a long time. So tired yet I can’t sleep because I’m so bad at organizing my time such that I’ve to leave Corp to the very last minute. There is so much to study and understand, so much left undone. And every time I fall asleep I have to force myself to wake up again and again. Think it happened 10 times in 10 minutes already. I am so, bloody, tired.

Emotionally tired or physically tired I don’t know. What happens if sometimes you really don’t know the reason why you’re feeling so emotionally sick? Like today, I was like an emo teenage kid attracting unnecessary attention expecting people to ask hey what’s wrong. I found it so damn difficult to smile. Was like something went really wrong. But what? You tell me.

I’m so tired. At least if I know what I need I could get it. But I don’t. And I’m just using Corp to please my unsound mind. A day like this is enough to drive me nuts, really.

Back to normal please.