The world is spinning around me right now as I lay on my bed with my eyes wide open and brain trying very hard to relax and think about why how what I should do (in order).
1. Be a better daughter, have more meals with papa and mummy
2. Study for mods in time and don’t be a last min dog
3. Keep up with friends don’t take them for granted
4. Grow smarter.
5. Play with my dogs more
6. Don’t play with my nails so much
7. Dream less

Actually its not that difficult. Its not that difficult to keep my world spinning. Its not that difficult to stay alive. Just keep going. Don’t be a retard belle! Fight and stay alive.

(Sigh.)

Oh by the way, lately I’ve been stepping into a whole new dimension of hope, that may somehow turn this dream into reality. And it’s one of the only things that’s not in monochrome. Always thought it slipped away but hey now that its back I won’t let go! I’ll work hard, breathe and smile.. Much love.