These 3 letters are annoying me.

I just got back (a few days ago) from Philippines and hell yeah it was the most awesome trip ever. Didn’t expect myself to enjoy it that much, rather. The kids were beautiful, the village was great, and the resort was breathtaking. Ahhhhhhhh and I planned to come back with a heavy heart but at the same time I was excited, because I had so much to carol. But no. HFM came and knocked upon my door and made me stay home for A FRIGGIN WEEK. Or more. Possibly till christmas. And poof, there went my caroling, my xmas shopping, my xmas parties, the pretty lights in town, the going out and having fun, and my much awaited dates with boyfriend. I am angry at HFM but I shall not seem to be if not they won’t go away. It probably thought I was a kid but I am friggin twenty years old. Why me ):

Okay so I’m here on a Monday morning, with Samba and xmas party later that is not going to happen in reality. What a loser. Well anyway, just a few things that came to my mind.

Spending the past 2 weeks with you really made me understand you a lot more than I already did. I had 14 days to take a real good look at you, and to fall in love with you once again. Yeah I guess I was wrong. All those times I was looking somewhere else for an answer I’ll never find. Those times when I thought you were what I expected you to be who I thought you would be. Those times when I complained, rant, because I couldn’t find what I wanted to see. So foolish, so dumb of me. I really want to say I’m sorry for having such expectations. I could have told you this in person but I haven’t done it in a long time and I don’t know how to… Such a loser. Whatever it is, I’m so glad you’re here, accompanying me everyday although HFM might go eat you up as well. Sigh. <3 you boyfriend. Can’t wait to spend christmas with you, hopefully.